2 things i learned today

well i learned a valuable lesson today. when lexi is sleeping and wakes up crying momom over and over again something is really wrong. well i knew something was right when she started whimpering but when i went in there and she started crying momom i knew and less than a minute later she progetile vomited all over the place. and the 2nd thing i learned is one since she cant really communicate she was scared cuz she didnt know what was going on and started screaming cuz the vomit was touching her. so i put her in the bath and she screamed even louder and starting freaking out cuz the stuff was in her water so i had to turn on the shower to clean her. so tonight was a learning experience

updates

last week lexi started school. when she saw the bus she took off running away from me and away from the bus aide. but after that she was fine so not sure what the problem was. she had play therapy this week and as i was talking to her play therapist i mentioned that lexi is on vivance for adhd. she looked at me and said this little girl doesnt have an attention problem. she said yes lexi is immature but doesnt want to sit for more than 10 minutes but its because she has sensory problems and is sensory seeking. so she is writing lexis dr a letter to tell her she doesnt have adhd.she gave me some ideas on how to handle lexi when she has a meltdown and iv tried it and so far its helped a little bit. she just started speech and im anxious to see how much we can improve with talking

finally a phone call

so a week after i called lexis dr they finally called me. only to tell me that 1. her meltdowns are normal and are mostly sensory so just deal with it and talk to the OT and 2. as long as shes getting some sleep its fine cuz they cant do nothing but give her melitonin and since that 'work guess i gotta deal with that.but i really want to know how it is OK for a child to have sleeping habits of a newborn and it be OK. when i say sleeping habits of a newborn i'm talking getting up every 2-3 hours. i just want a night of uninterrupted sleep. also she is no longer eating all that much. she hardly touches breakfast and dinner.

overwhelmed

i called Lexi's developmental ped on tuesday and they never called me back. so i'm guessing once again i'll have to call them again and see if they can tell me what to do about Lexi's aggressive behaviors. shes still having meltdowns everyday and now all she wants to do is eat. its a good thing but all shes eating is cherrios and those are not the healthiest food out there. Her sensory issues are still out of wack. she still only wants to where clothes once in a while and wants to be unclothed the rest of the time.

just to get it off my chest

the more meltdowns lexi has the harder it becomes to even deal with it. like this evening she took off her clothes tried to get her to put something else on nope she only wanted socks. ok then i make her chicken nuggets and she eats about 8 of them. i go to make my own food now she wants my food too. here comes another meltdown. so i fix her some of my food she eats. and throws the rest of it at me for no reason. i tell her no and tell her its time for bed so she starts picking up her stuff to launch at me. i again tell her no pick her up and she starts screeching. finally i turn off the lights and tell her hey your do u want ur remote and she takes it and goes to sleep. what the heck is going on with her i want to know. everything is a fight with her. keeping clothes on her is like a chore all on its own.she will take the clothes off but wont put anything on and she has to be able to get into her drawer or she gets mad. the only thing i know that has set her off into epic meltdown mode is her pacifer. i just wish i knew how to stop her because 1 i am going to go crazy and 2 she is going to start school next week and she needs to not have meltdowns all the time. and ever since shes gone into meltdowns everyday she wont go to bed until after 930 or so even when i give her melitonin. so im going definitly call tomorrow cuz i think they need to tell me what to do to help her

more meltdowns

so ever since i took the pacifier away from lexi it seems the meltdowns come more and more often. like on saturday i ran down to the gas station and left her with my mom well she went into an epic meltdown because she wanted to go and i didnt take her. it was easier leaving her with my mom than taking her with. and sunday morning she had a few more meltdowns over odd things. im thinking i really need to call her developmental dr and see what we can do because its really getting hard to control her when shes in meltdown mode. im proud of her though cuz tomorrow will mark one week of giving up the pacifer.

meltdowns

lexi just had an hour meltdown and nothing i did worked. she kick, pulled my hair, banged her head with mine, threw stuff at me and screeched the whole time. only thing i can figure out that set her off is she wanted to take her clothes off and her pull up. i allowed her to take her clothes off but not her pull up and she went into a horrible meltdown. and of course when i couldnt get her to calm down i started to cry myself. the only reason she stopped was because of dora the explorer came on, if it wasnt for dora i think we would still be in meltdown mode. i really want to know what goes on in her head and i want people to understand why she does it. everyone thinks i should spank her and ignore her but spanking just pisses her off a hell of a lot more and ignoring her just lets her tear up my stuff or my moms stuff. i wish her dr appointment was sooner and not next month because i think the dr needs to get her a behavior consult or something. her hurting me is bad and i feel like a terrible mom because i don't know how to get her to stop.